gosh!! why is this so hard to use?! I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING!!!

why can't i post on this thing?! does anyone know how to use this?! (well, duh you do...) can someone please help me so I can use this thing and better myself...

please

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hey ---

wow, so this is my first actual "journal" thing...and i'm going to do my best at keeping up with it...i mean, i do lead a very busy life *wink wink*

yeah, so i guess i should tell y'all a little bit about myself...

ummm...i'm still searching for that moment that i'm totally happy.  i mean, honestly there hasn't been one yet.

i guess i've just always wanted to be someone else...you know?

i'm not pretty.  i'm not smart.  i'm not talented.  i have no meaning...

i'm sick and tired of  trying to be someone who pleases everyone else...for once in my life, i want to do something for myself, for me.  and i want to be beautiful.

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Current Mood: satisfied